"Never in my life have i been more sure, so come on up to me and close the door. Nobody's made me feel this way before, you're everything i wanted and more."

When i was 15 years old, i met this boy who seemed to be the perfect human being i've ever met.I was totally infatuated. Thinking that the feelings that we shared would last forever.But as the summer ended, my memories of him faded away, so was my infatuation.He was at the other side of the world, while i was in a world of my own.I grew up, realized that fairytales do not come true. Much more with our situation, because there's this one big factor that makes it forbidden.And then i decided, that i would end my big dreams of happily ever after.

"I try to tell myself wake up fool, this fairytale's got to end."

Fast forward 5 years, destiny brought us back together. It was like 5 years ago, only this time what we have is a mature kind of relationship, but more complicated.He's still on his side of the world, and i'm still in my own.But with maturity, comes the saying if there's a will, there's a way. The other night i had this conversation with him where we talked about what happened to us 5 years ago.He told me about the letters that i wrote to him everyday, which he kept and arranged in chronological order.I DO NOT remember sending letters to him everyday, i don't even remember sending any letter! But the way he described it makes it feel real. He reminded me of the song in the video, Balisong by Rivermaya, sang it to me as if it was his favorite song, while nostalgia crawled up in my veins.He told me of his other memories of 5 years ago, and i just listened as if i was hearing everything for the first time.

I thought he had already forgotten everything, i thought the silly summer fling that i had was also a silly summer fling for him. But i was wrong, i think he really loved me.After all these years, while i found other people to love, he had those memories in his head,and a love still waiting to be returned.If only i knew earlier, i would have came back and loved him.Now i have a lot of what ifs in my head.Oh, how wonderful the past 5 years would have been if i only did not turn a blind eye on him.

"Never in my life have i been more sure, so come on up to me and close the door. Nobody's made me feel this way before, you're everything i wanted and more."

When i was 15 years old, i met this boy who seemed to be the perfect human being i've ever met.I was totally infatuated. Thinking that the feelings that we shared would last forever.But as the summer ended, my memories of him faded away, so was my infatuation.He was at the other side of the world, while i was in a world of my own.I grew up, realized that fairytales do not come true. Much more with our situation, because there's this one big factor that makes it forbidden.And then i decided, that i would end my big dreams of happily ever after.

"I try to tell myself wake up fool, this fairytale's got to end."

Fast forward 5 years, destiny brought us back together. It was like 5 years ago, only this time what we have is a mature kind of relationship, but more complicated.He's still on his side of the world, and i'm still in my own.But with maturity, comes the saying if there's a will, there's a way. The other night i had this conversation with him where we talked about what happened to us 5 years ago.He told me about the letters that i wrote to him everyday, which he kept and arranged in chronological order.I DO NOT remember sending letters to him everyday, i don't even remember sending any letter! But the way he described it makes it feel real. He reminded me of the song in the video, Balisong by Rivermaya, sang it to me as if it was his favorite song, while nostalgia crawled up in my veins.He told me of his other memories of 5 years ago, and i just listened as if i was hearing everything for the first time.

I thought he had already forgotten everything, i thought the silly summer fling that i had was also a silly summer fling for him. But i was wrong, i think he really loved me.After all these years, while i found other people to love, he had those memories in his head,and a love still waiting to be returned.If only i knew earlier, i would have came back and loved him.Now i have a lot of what ifs in my head.Oh, how wonderful the past 5 years would have been if i only did not turn a blind eye on him.